I haven't wrote in a while, that's because I haven't felt like it. I always tend to start things and don't continue it for some sort of reason. It seems like the negative habits take over once again and I feel like giving up or quitting. I've noticed that at the end of the day that I haven't been myself lately. Something is lacking and I'm not sure what it is. I want something and I do know what it is but it's like maybe I tend to doubt what that thing is. I need to be praying more than ever when this tries to come upon me. This has happened on more than one occasion and it is nothing new. Things start to improve and then they become sort of crazy once again. I know things will get better and I have to be the one to propel it to be better. Sometimes, we ask God for some things but He expects us to do our part on it. He doesn't want everything to be done by Himself only even though we know that He doesn't need help. But, if you want something then you have to work towards it. I mean I do feel a little better, but I want to feel great. I just wonder sometimes at what point will that happen. So, I know why I haven't been myself lately and I may not reveal that within in this blog, but if you do know a word of prayer then pray for me. This is what I ask as you read this. I know that at one point or another, that we have all felt that way where it just feels where we lack something and we don't know what, but at the same time we do know. We need to release these things and give them all to God. I've been feeling a struggle within myself and I know that it will get better because it has to get better because I believe that it will. Sometimes, it's hard not to lose faith but we have to keep the faith and keep pressing forth. This has been occurring with me on and off for months. I've noticed that certain things that I'm apart that I have been getting away from just once or a little I feel better about because there's another work for me to do. This must be what has been bothering me and I'm unsure of that work but I know that if I pray I will get a revelation. It is because there is more for me to do and I'm not doing it right now. Lord, I must get ready for what it is that you will have me to do.
