When Holding on seems to be the Only Thing....

I haven't written in a while. I feel that these days all has been stripped from me. I applied to a few jobs and nothing yet. I mean I haven't got a clue as to what God is doing. But, I know that He's doing SOMETHING. I mean what is it that you want me to be here for? I asked this morning. There must be some purpose. I mean I'm not getting paid enough and it is hard to pay for all that I have to pay for. I am in the stone age right now. I can't tell these things to everyone because some people will speak negativity and you need to remove yourself from my life because I'm not hearing you. Others will just make fun of me while I am down and then others won't care. I keep this to myself and I pray to God knowing that He is ultimately the only one who cares and can bring me out. I read Psalms 17-18; and then chapter 20. It was like revelation all the way through. I mean my God, truly your servant David was dealing with frustration after frustration just like I am facing, but in the end he praised you and acknowledged you as the God who can bring him out of his mess. My goal is to pass the tests that I face with flying colors. I mean I'm human and so I will be frustrated and maybe even cry, but will make it. I refuse to fail. I go to school now and I am happy to attend where I am attending. Most people are like why didn't you attend POST which is closer to me. I actually wanted a different location. I have been in Long Island all of my life and it is time to move on. The desires and aspirations that I have are so beyond what I see right now. My phone is not the same, it has been purged out of some things that I didn't want to be purged. But, I should have written it somewhere else. There are some things that I am working on. But, no matter what it shall come to past. It is all new for me since I am not used to all of this. But, I know that I am in good standing because of the suffering that I now face. It is unfortunate but I am in good hands. I have stressed out and cried, but that just raised my blood pressure I'm sure and have given me plenty of headaches. I know that what I am praying about will come to past and will work in my favor. I am just passing through. All I can do is pray, read the Word, fast and seek God keeping my mind on Him for the perfect peace that He left for me. I miss all of the things that were once familiar to me but I know that I am shifting due to everything being stripped. I don't have all of the luxuries that you may now have, but at least I have what I need. I never go hungry, I can walk to and from work, travel to school, be able to get a great education and just have a great time with God. I can also actually do homework and study. I tell myself that it will get better and see myself in a whole other way than what I see right now. Sod, I am grateful for the trials because they are working on my faith. Don't give up and know the power that you have to overcome and speak the positive in your life if you don't like your current state. Let us be content but not complacent. I don't know how God is going to turn this storm around, but I am glad that He's in control. 


God bless 


NaturalGoddess <3

When Life Knocks You Down for Only What Seems Longer than a Moment

 It seems that nothing can touch you and that you think you have things under control. You know just what you're going to do and how you're going to do it. Then reality starts setting in. You didn't think so much failure, opposition and rejection would be your portion, but in this moment it is. It hurts so much that the enthusiasm and the high energy you had, just gone in a split second. A moment ago you were happy and then the next you were done. You were done because you had given up. One thing you should know is that those things which caused you to be done and down and out, are the very things that will shape your character. It is good to know you will still praise God while things are all flowery and nice, but the question is can you still praise Him in the midst of hell? Can you praise Him even when you're down to nothing? Can you tell Him your frustrations and give Him your worries and cares? Will you try to take it upon yourself? It's only a moment and that's what you have to remember. I had to tell myself that this trouble that I'm in won't last always. There's a lesson to be learned here. It seems as if it just keeps on repeating itself and nothing is improving. You then think could it be that was the cause of it? That's what you should do during your evaluation first and if not, then you just see and wait what it is that God is trying to tell you and teach you in that season. If it is, then you fix the problem and then things should start to look up. If they don't then it's not your time for your release yet. There's still more for you to learn. There's some growing that you have to do and move forward after when the lesson is learned. Your attitude also is important as well when this sudden change comes upon you. I can say that my attitude certainly was not good when a sudden thing that didn't work out for me at the time that I wanted it, I was upset because I have things to do and what not. This blog is actually inspired by what has happened this week to me. But in the midst of all of this opposition, I have to keep on pressing because God either has something better or it isn't my time. You must ask for His strength and worship Him because that's how you will get through the difficulties that occur your way. I was still upset, but my mind ended up off of it due to my worship and writing in my journal. These are some of the ways that cool myself down when I am facing something difficult. I just looked at an Instagram post that I put up I think 2 weeks ago, no matter what God sees our pain and He's not just off somewhere but He cares about us. Yes, He cares about you. Let's not ask why it is happening but what can I learn from what's happening? Even though, I make mistakes and mess up every day, God still cares and He grants me mercy and grace from moment to moment all the way from hours to hours. So, why not just give Him everything that you are wasting your energy on. I am learning to this even while writing this blog. It is crazy how we may write, but we don't practice that of which we write. But, I am telling you I'm asking God right now to help me to practice that of which I write. I want people to be able to see that I say is what I do. So, when life knocks you down, it is really for a moment but it seems longer because it hurts so badly at the time. But, day by day it will get better and begin to improve. Hold on and look to God who's your strength. I know that's the only way that I'm making it right now. I get upset and frustrated, disappointed just like anyone else, but I give it to God and pray about it. I ask others to pray with me about it too so that I may have people backing me up. These are women of faith and they are prayer warriors. So, just hang in there what may seem long is actually not long. Lean yourself to God for your strength. For His strength is perfect in our weakness.


God bless

Been A Long Time

It's been a while since I posted. I mean I can't even tell you how much has changed. I believe I didn't tell you but I have graduated, turned 24 and on the brink to ending up into the school of my choice. I have faith to know that all shall be well. It's been rough lately but I can't complain because I am living, breathing and functioning correctly. God has been good more than I can imagine. Even to the point, where business is soon taking off. I am Avon representative and I love what I do. I am just a bit shy when it comes to being in contact with those who I don't know. God is surely breaking the barriers and is helping me to overcome the fears that I have. I am grateful that even in the workplace I can share the opportunity to others of knowing that can exclusively have things that are not in the stores. It's been a long time coming since I have wrote a blog or anything for that matter. A few journal entries have been written here and there in my journals. I have been struggling financially and I am being real, but God is good because we all have struggles for no one is perfect. As this blog has been entitled The Journey of NaturalGoddess it will mean that I will have ups and downs, twists and turns because it's all apart of life. I love what I do which is helping others connecting to something great. I have to be able to keep pressing on. Even though I am at this level now, I know that I won't always be at this level later on. The hard I work, the more benefits I will see. The fruit of my labor will not be in vain. How much you put in is how you will get out. It doesn't matter who is a nay sayer, it matters who's a supporter. I can say that there are more for me than those that are against me. I called this blog been a long time because it is just to update my thoughts and feelings onto the blog. I feel like all is standing still and nothing has progressed but it is okay. I am still pursuing until I reach.

New Chapter, New Level

I know it's been a long time since I've posted anything. But, it's official I AM NO LONGER A STUDENT AT NASSAU COMMUNITY COLLEGE! You may ask what's in store now? Well, I plan to go to college in the city to obtain my bachelor's and master's degrees. I'm still pending on whether or not I should do my doctorate. This post is in black for a reason: sophistication. I realize that the very things that don't go my way are the very things that weren't meant for me in the first place. God has always seen me through, some way, somehow before it got any worse and even though it hurts or upsets me at the time, I can say that I am grateful to the one who's head of my life. I know that I will go further in life and that I am great. I could have been dead by now, never graduating and growing. Even though friendships,relationships,circumstances may have turned sour they all worked for my good. So, now I am ready for this new chapter of life. I can't say that it won't be easy, but just like I made it through the last one, I know I will make it through this one to come. Kudos and hats off to myself because if no one does it for me then who else will do it?

No Need...

No need to be salty on this day. Happy Valentine's Day. You should really focus on loving yourself.  Jesus loves you always and He wants you to come to Him. He will make things easier than you trying to take it upon yourself. Just be blessed by my video and I will send you those links.  Excuse this video it is uneditied but it will be better later. 

Here are some links:

http://ijustmetme.com/2014/02/whys-its-great-to-be-a-christian-single-on-valentines-day/

http://askmystilettos.blogspot.com/2014/02/iam-in-love.html

http://www.heatherllindsey.com/2014/02/valentines-day-blues.html#.Uv6dLiiQm0s

Love you all!

NaturalGoddess<3

Celebrate Yourself!

I got inspired from hearing a sister of mine saying that she had nothing to celebrate. They were talking about comparing themselves to others. But we have to look at everything that we have accomplished in our lives. It may not be big but it is something better than before. In this life, we will have many disappointments and no one is going to be there for us. They want to see us crumble and fall. There will be some people that are there for you of course, but since we all have our situations we may go to our lives and be "away" for a while. You have to be encouraged. Here's a little exercise: write down all the GOOD things about you. Don't focus on the bad or anything negative. You just focus on the positive. I plan to do a spa day for myself soon because I think it's necessary. At times, we are so overwhelmed with those things in life that we don't sit down, take a breath and rest. If you have Christ then this should be even better for you because He wants us to cast our cares on Him and to go on with our life because He has it all in the palm of His hands. We can celebrate ourselves by dancing and having a party with us. Lol! I know that sounds so hilarious and ridiculous but try it. I have to try this all myself and I'm telling you it works. Everyday I tend to talk to myself and yes I'm sane thank you very much. I may seem crazy to folks but it doesn't matter because I am very comfortable with doing so. I do it at home every morning or even just at random points. We have to know who we are and our identity is really in God. Why do you think you have a void inside because there's something missing and it's not celebrating by going to the club, drinking and smoking every weekend that will fill you. Christ is the only one that can satisfy our soul Whether we like it or not, we have to seek Him and ask for HIm to come in our lives so that He may take control. He knows what's best. He will be able to give us that reason to celebrate ourselves. We need to have that self- confidence.  Do things on your own and stay away from social media if that's what allows you to get into the mode of comparing yourself. It's really not good because everything that glitter ain't gold. We must pay attention to what we are doing and not what others are doing.  I picked this color because it shines bright like the sun. You are sunshine don't allow no one to tell you any different. If you need help, then have those around who will be an encouragement and builds you up, not tears you down. Get rid of those who seem to tear you down. Love your flaws each and every single one of them don't worry because we all have flaws because no one is perfect but Jesus Christ. Stay well my brother, my sister. Remember to esteem yourself in a way that's healthy and not in a way that will be unhealthy leading to destruction. 


"You is kind, you is smart, you is important"(from The Help).





NaturalGoddess <3

New Year, New Vision, New Mindset

Happy New Year one and all! I hope that you had a wonderful time celebrating. We always say every year how it's going to be different and I'm going to do this differently and that differently. What you call them....NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS! Honestly, I just don't believe in those, but I do believe in GOALS though. Make sure that when you actually say these things that you do them because we actually don't do them people. From saying I'm going to workout and eat healthy to I am going to treat people differently. If you ask me, you need to just do it instead of say it. I say things and I end up not doing them but I am learning to write it down once it comes to mind, go back to what I wrote and then do it. Sometimes I do end up failing but with every failure I am closer to my success. You have to make sure that when you do fall off, to get right back up on the train. That's what I just realized while actually writing this. I have a lot to do today and I haven't got to the meat of things yet. It is a terrible thing when we preoccupy our time with things that can be done later due to the fact that THEY WILL BE THERE WHEN WE ARE DONE DOING THE IMPORTANT THINGS. You are probably wondering why I am writing in caps because I want to make it known and it has some importance to me. The vision that you may have may not be new but if you still have it and what you tried in 2013 didn't work for you, then you need to change strategies in 2014. That's basically what I'm saying. I  am speaking about myself too and some things have changed and some things haven't. This is because along the way, my allergies decided to stop by and tell my body how it should operate. I'm telling you though NO EXCUSES. Keep on going and you don't want to end up with the shouldas, couldas, wouldas. I spell it like this because we pronounce it like this for the most part. Let's get ourselves in line people. For real, we have to be thinking differently because we don't want to watch our dreams pass us by. Dream again, make a vision board and go forth with your vision. HOpe your year of 2014 will be grand and greater. I know mine will! 

NaturalGoddess<3