Hello all! Well, do I have something to write on this one today. I mean right now I feel like I am back tracking in 2013 and I will tell you why that is. This is because in reference to my If Your Heart's Not in It, Why Do It? Blog. I have to do that thing in which I don't want to do based on authority. Even though, this is the case I give my 100% anyway. I mean I'm fed up because I'm on a different level and different wave than everybody else. My mind is not where their mind is at for that matter. I mean when something is your passion and you don't want to be apart of that thing in which you have a love and a passion for, there's a problem. I mean like I can't believe that I have to do this. I mean the reason why I must is because there's no sense in even bothering to not do so when the other individuals who have been away from the very same thing now have to come too. I can understand their frustration because it's like to be honest without myself and those individuals, the group won't be effective and they can't function. I'm calling it how I see it. This is just something that I was battling with in 2012 that I really want to put behind me. It's a new year for goodness sake. I don't want to be harboring feelings from 2012 in 2013. I feel like that I will be held back because of this very thing and don't get me started on the fact that if you want someone to be apart of something you will make an obligation to make sure that they have a way to get there and be home.This blog is discussing issues that are in my heart for real and I'm not joking either. This is ridiculous and God please help me. I need you because there is no one else that can do that for me. I don't really know what to do, but all I know is Lord only you can get me through.I mean I know that my gift will make room for me and there are things that are inside of me that will come out. I had a discussion about with my significant other and he said it is up to you. You hold the power to change things if you don't like them. Honey, you are completely right! His insight on my emotions are on the money. I know that I don't want to be fed up in 2013 over this nonsense. I mean it is making aggy(aggravated) in other aspects that I actually like doing and who knows because the sky is the limit to what I can try. How do I know what is in me without even having time to try it first? I want fed up, frustration to be no more. There was a discussion yesterday that has to do with it and I need to have my own discussion with authority because I'm only doing this for them. I still feel if your heart's not in it, why do it? So, go for your dreams and don't allow those things which frustrate you to hinder you for what's in front of you.
NaturalGoddess<3
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