Did you ever went about each day knowing that things would improve until they actually didn't and then your Creator tells you that cutting must be done? Do you know how hard that is? To actually get rid of something that He told you trust me. That's why I entitled this blog life is funny..one big roller coaster. You're up one moment and then down another. You also face some upside downs and twists and turns in this life. The thing was life is also like a curve ball because I never would have expected this. One thing that I don't really like is how painful it is to go through this and you happen to see everyone else: saints and worldly folk doing a lot better than you. Of course we know that the worldly folk will be doing much better because they are BUSY: Being Under Satan's Yoke. I got that acronym of BUSY from the NY Call this past weekend which was excellent. The actor Steve Baldwin had said this while he was speaking. Worldly folk will have everything and more and things will be looking really good for them too. The saints went through their season of pruning and pain and hurt, but now it is my time. But, this goes to say you never know what to expect in this life for our lives are like a vapor. Here today and gone tomorrow. So, we must live as if it was our last. It does suck to be a child of the King and not see anything changing or working out. You feel stuck, forgotten, lost and not prosperous. It looks like things just aren't looking up and then when you least expect you have to lose even more stuff or remove people from your life. It's either the person does it or God will do it. When He does it, there's no telling how it will turn out. It could be worse than if you did it. But, I guess I have to laugh to keep from crying. That's what we have to do and paint a face on and put on that mask. We need to have a facade so that no one can see what we are really facing. If someone happens to push us the wrong way though, all of that you were hiding happens to come out though.Life is funny because you can end up crying and laughing the next moment after crying. But, I guess it's for the greater good because God is greater than. I feel like I can't even move or function and you know as long as I do stay occupied then it will be gone for that moment or period of time. But, it will always be back in my face to haunt me and I will have to face that demon. It's like I can never keep anything, that's what it feels like. I feel like I was this close and then it was snatched from me. I deactivated my facebook for the time being. I felt like it was the best thing to do because it was getting to be too depressing for me anyway. So, that was the first step and so I don't have to take down anything such as not being engaged or the pictures of us. So life has a way of tripping us up but it always has ways of making us stronger.
God bless
NaturalGoddess
