Two More Weeks Until The Year is Over

I can't believe it this year of 2013 is almost over. There has been so much that has happened, good and bad. Even though things have been at a halt or so it feels like it has, God has been good. I just wanted to write this post just in case, I may not even write anything at all. I know you are probably thinking wow 2013 is almost over and that you want 2014 to hurry up and arrive. I always think in my head, why do people always say that though. I just expect nothing but great things to come forth in 2014. There are certain things that have happened I am most certainly not pleased with but to God be the glory. I just have to keep in my mind of who I am and who's I am. If I don't, then I know I will go insane. But thanks be to God, He is the only one that can understand me.I refuse to believe that I am beneath and not above. For even though I went through this year and we go through every year to be honest SOMETHING; I know that this year will be more blessings than trials. I decree and declare it over my life in the name of Jesus. You have to keep on saying things over yourself even if you can't see it. It's crazy because when I look back over this year and I see where I was supposed to be heading to as of next year, it seemed like it was going to be great but God saved me from the relationship that I was in. It didn't feel good and I believe that I still fully haven't understood but I will understand one day. When it happens I will know that God already has the BEST for me. I can't believe that 2013 is almost over. It gets me excited but at the same time helps me to reflect on the year that has taken place. Looking at where I was in the beginning to where I am now and even though some things haven't been manifest yet, I can see that there has been change. There are some areas in my life spritually as well as naturally that need some change, but everything in God's timing. I know that I have grown and there are still some tendancies about me that still have to be shedded off. But, I bless God. I am not complacent and at least I'm not hoping that I am, but I am positioning myself to see the change and be apart of the change that is to come at my place of work. I am expecting many of the strongholds and things that once have hindered me to be loosed and that I will be better in Jesus name.I will say that it does get rough and I do shed tears, but with each breakdown and time in which I cry I know that I am one step closer to my victory. I know where to leave it at and who to give it to.I am not perfect but I am striving toward perfection in Jesus. Wow, to think that the year is almost over is amazing it feels like I had ended up just started school and now to see that I have passed my classes and soon am graduating is amazing. This is only the beginning and there will be more to come. I have been underneath or so it seems for a while, but I remember the story of Joseph and what he had to face as an example. I realize that I must be humble before being exalted and I know that some people will talk about me and hate me for no reason. But, that's what Jesus faced.If He had to go through it what makes me any different and so I have been mindful that all is lowliness is good because I am well on my way. Just reflect on your life during this year. This is my reflection. 

 Happy Holidays!

NaturalGoddess<3

It's Time to Do You!

Honey, I have been learning this title for a minute just recently. If I didn't know before, I surely know now. Don't mind why I may have decided to write in this color, it was the time to something different in a sense. I hope it caught your attention too. Smile. This is something that a sister in Christ says all the time when she talks or sends text messages. It's time for you to deal with you and stop supporting everyone else. I mean we can still support them and be a part of what their vision is but if you don't indulge in yourself daily in which you give your vision time to cultivate, then there is surely a problem. I am learning this very thing  because  currently I am supporting sisters and brothers in Christ and the vision they have. What about me? Now, I can't ask this question if I'm not doing anything about it.Now what their vision entails can go a long to the point where if I play my cards right, I can end up helping myself by being apart of them. It took me a while and it is still taking me a minute to wake up and actually get it but I believe that I am getting it now. I have to make sure that I work towards myself in some way because I have to market myself and this is not an easy thing. You have to pull some strings and make connections to get to where you are going. I am learning that from those who are around me and who are mentoring or keeping me accountable. I am really thankful for them being in my life and how God has really placed them in my life. It doesn't matter what anyone else says because at the end of the day they can care less about you when it comes to them. I'm not saying to treat people the same way they treat us. If you are a born again believer and following after Christ you shouldn't be treating them that way anyway.You have to treat them better that they think that you are weird and something is wrong with you, but you know that it  is the Savior that lives in you and you make the difference from everyone in the world. We live in the world, but we are not of the world. I can say that I am ready to do me because God has to move aside this person and this significant other just to get my attention and say hey time to do you boo. God knows just what is best for me more than I will ever know. I can't imagine not having Jesus in my life for I am a mess but am turning into a message right before His eyes. This is a journey and a journey is not something that could be rushed but it is a step by step process that is gradually progressing or sometimes not progressing but you would hope for the journey to progress as time goes on. If we don't invest in ourselves and we invest in everyone else, then we won't be able to do the things that we are supposed to do on this earth. Whether you want to believe it or not, you have a purpose, you're not here just to be here and there is something that you are supposed to be doing for your Creator. Do you who that is? It's not your parents because who created them and it's not your grandparents because who created them? Honestly, this list will go on and on. It's too complicated to figure out. But, I just know that it's time to do me and not allow anyone or anything to stand in my way. With God's help, I GOT THIS! I'm nothing without Him anyway so why not allowing Him to take over and be in control while I just sit back and relax. Of course, I have work to do, but once my portion is over then it's up to Him and He doesn't fail. So, if you don't know it before IT'S YOUR TIME! IT'S TIME TO DO YOU! No matter what others seem to think of you. If you think you're not qualified, then it may be true but God does that qualifications. 





NaturalGoddess<3

Stay In Your Place

In all matters of life, there is a time for everything. A time when to follow and a time when to lead. If your time has come and gone already, then allow the person that is now leading to have their time. What I don't get about people is that they will tear down anyone just to have their time in the spotlight instead of edifying and helping others. I understand if you want to assist, but taking over is the wrong spirit. This is just like what lucifier was trying to do with God. If you are causing confusion and thinking that you mean well, then you are WRONG!!! God is not the author of confusion, but He is the GOD OF DECENCY AND ORDER. How dare you come and try to take over. Stay in your place! We should be building up one another, not tearing each other down. How dare you ridicule another person, and you can't do no better. You had your time. I'm sure you mean well but really look and analyze what you are doing when your actions are dictating another person's actions. On Sunday in Sunday school,  I learned about encouragement and how important it is. I've also been reading about friendship so I definitely know who is for me and who is against me. The nerve of people. All they do is critic and can't even come with a positive bone in their body. That's a shame. People need to learn how to stay in their lane. God doesn't like that discord and that confusion because He's not a part of that kind of activity. I am just so tired of those who are trying to lead before their time or those who won't allow others to lead because it's all about them leading. Aren't we all apart of the same goal and should have the same mindset? It's really sad. I had to write since this happening around me now and I have seen it for myself but at least in that case it was shut down. This needs to be done again too and it shall. Encourage each other and don't tear one another down by any means necessary.









NaturalGoddess<3

Relationships: Who You Attract, Is Who You Are( Believe it or not)

Just because you see that it's entitled relationships doesn't mean I am talking about intimate relationships between man and woman only. But ALL relationships. I came to grips with myself today in thought. I thought especially about who I have attracted lately and how they really were when things got ugly.  I am like oh my goodness, this is who I am. It wasn't anything that was positive either. But, it was a negative qualitiy that I have that holds me back to succeed, for what God has for me and who He has for me. Also, for my being sensitive and vulnerable to Him. My relationships with man or just friends as far as the negative shows that I am unstable, lazy and am trying to make it by having a silver spoon handed to me.  I was like wow this is not good at all. Also, I realized from these same relationships that I am deceiving and that I am dishonest with myself as well as others and I am unsure of where I am heading.This  is exactly me to the t and it is sad. I also realized that I am not around people who have "made it" yet. Everyone is working trying to make the money to survive. They say to surround yourself with successful people. The reason why they say that because it will rub off on you and then you can become successful too. This is why it is so important who you are connected to. It is not just a natural thing, but it is a spiritual thing, for everything in this life is spiritual. You have to watch who you allow in your life. One of the things that has really stuck with me is to know your circle. Ask God for that guidance on who is this person and what are they are about. I am not trying to have any old guy in my life unless it is directed by God. I have done this relationship thing by myself and look where it has gotten me. Broken heart, insecurity galore,etc. I don't want to be a person that is so like unstable and unsuccessful and still stuck in the same place. A lot of people ask me, what's new with you? I'm like you know nothing really. It is because what am I doing to make progress toward what I am trying to accomplish. This is the problem with a lot of us. Procrastination and laziness cannot have me. I have to and must overcome these things that I have been dealing with. I refuse to depend on anyone especially a MAN  to help me. It is fine and well to ask for help sometimes, but not all the time where you become a leech to those around you. That's taking away from them all that they have worked so hard for. Where is your reward for the work that you put in? If there's no reward, go back and reevaluate what did you do wrong. Then, do it again but with another strategy.  I encourage you who are the people that you are around and really think about everything in your life. Is this where I want to be in the next  year? I have already been considering these questions and the more I think, the more I feel a certain kind of way. It is really important  to be around the right especially in times when you're really going through and struggling. Watch who you are around if you have to reject and cut off, do so it is vital to your life.




NaturalGoddess<3

Content, not Complacent

Content is the satisfaction of one's point in life, while complacent is being pleased. These two are different although they have similar meanings. They are different when it comes to a situation in our life. Complacency can even take the same value as laziness. The Word of God says to be content in whatever state that you are in. This is in Philippians chapter 4.  I may be satisfied or content where I am now because I know there are greater levels for me to go in God, but that doesn't mean I am pleased or complacent with the situations that I am facing. If I become complacent how can I go higher to the next level. Being complacent can mean that I can allow everything to pass me by and never trying to accomplish goals in order to get to the next level. Sometimes you have to make a move in order for God to bring things to completion. I know that in my situation that it won't always be like this. I am content with it but I am not complacent with it because there is more for me. I just know that I know there is more for me. If there is something that I am unable to do and it is something that I need to learn, I need to go right ahead and take those steps to get well at it by learning the skill. Knowing how to do that skill will lead into greater things and measures that may very well take me far. It is imperative in our lives whether a follower of Christ or a follower of something else, that we are to be content because complaining doesn't get us anywhere. Trust me I should know and know it well, it makes you feel even worst about the situation. If you think positively and on other things, then you would be better off and not worry about your situation. What I try to do is just see myself better than what I am now and it definitely helps me. God is taking me through this season and there will be other seasons to go through. When you are following after Him don't think that you won't go through some things. You will go through because if Jesus went through during His days on earth who are you? Don't be complacent with your situation, but be content in your situation. Look to God who is your strength and if you don't know Him, get to know Him by speaking with others about Him who have a relationship with Him. It's crazy how I am content in my situation now and to do an honest self check on myself I think that I am too complacent or things in my would change or I would do something to change them. I am speaking of the things that I can change and not the things that I can't change. So remember, to just be content, but all the way make those steps to become better. Also be careful, how you do that way to get that way to success.



NaturalGoddess<3

Carry On

I can say that these days have not been easy. But I want to relay a message: Carry on! Things may not be what we want them to be but we have to think positively. I like to think on the goodness of Jesus Christ because that's in whom I believe and that whose I am. There are things in this life that we have to go through and sometimes we try to run, we try to hide but we must listen to the voice inside telling us the right way to go. Many people call this conscience and I call it Holy Spirit. This is because when you are born again believing that Jesus died on the cross for you and rose from the dead taking death, hell and the grave in His hand.  You can now say that you follow after Christ. Sometimes I feel a certain way but if it is negative I've learned that I don't have to see myself this way. If we see ourselves that way things start going to how we see ourselves. No matter what happens we must Carry on it is imperative to. The greatest example would be of course Jesus and his life. He still carried on even though He told His father to pass the cup from Him. Can you imagine if God actually answered that prayer where we would be today? We wouldn't even  be here. But thank Jesus for dying on the cross giving all of us a chance to except Him. I'm glad that I am able to go through and have the strength to because of Jesus. If we end up breaking it off in our relationships or our job is getting worse or even if we are laid off, we must carry on. It is not an easy task but it will strengthen us for where God will take us. If you don't know Jesus as your personal savior and have a relationship with Him, get to know Him. It is simple. That's what I love about Him because He is simple and He wants us to open up to Him because He has His arms open to us. No matter what we have done He is willing to forgive us. He loves us all that's why He died for us. He said to take up your cross and follow me. Your cross might be the fact that your finances or low or people are treating you a way that is harmful. It could be anything but you have to remember that no matter what that you are blessed and that things will not be always the way that they are. You can  be up today and down tomorrow. One thing that I  have learned is God's way of  being successful is actually to fail . The world's way of being successful is knocking any and everybody just to get up and failure is not in the equation it is only there to some degree. I am learning day by day that we need to carry on and without God we would go insane. That's the reason for people killing themselves because they can't deal with life's pressures alone. It is only Jesus that can help us and some may know that and other may not. But, in all aspects carry on and see what life holds because what may be a cruse today will be the very thing that's a blessing tomorrow. 

NaturalGoddess<3

How Valuable Encouragement is for Mankind

We all need encouragement at some point of our lives. There are circumstances and situations in this life that we are going through that we may feel embarrassed to tell people about. So, we don't say much of anything but it is good to talk about what you face to trusted individuals in your life. You never know what they may say to you that may help you. I know for me with the situation that I was facing, the same person that was involved in that situation with me was the one who encouraged me. It was like his view and perspective of the situation was so optimistic and he was advising me on what I should do. I became a lot better than I have been these last couple of days. Now, I can go about my day the way that I usually do and not be upset with God anymore. Yes, people get angry with God and it's okay as long as we don't sin. It was like I had sisters and close friends that I can talk to about the situation. But he really made me realize that it will get better and that things will not last forever. So, you just never know what your sentence should I say can impact another life. Just the simple fact that of giving a compliment can be encouraging to the next human being. We all have days in where we feel down, it doesn't matter what our faith because we are humans. Christians are the ones that people view as the most sad and pessimistic. It's so crazy and I will write a blog on that later. But, we have to be the light to those out there who are in a savior. Encouraging others is most definitely our job because some people are just encouraged in how we carry ourselves during a situation. It is that detrimental that we uphold ourselves if we born again believers as such. We must be prayerful and read our word because that will uphold us. If we focus on these things there is no telling how different the world would be. Instead of tearing one another down, we need to stick together and uplift each other. We are the body of Christ and each one of us is who everyone sees. We may the Jesus that they see because we are called to edify one another and that's just what encouraging is. Edification is encouragement.We must remember this because it is important to one another. I feel that encouragement stems from love as well because when you care about someone you want the best for them. So, it's hard depending on what we're facing  but it is vital. Encouragement can help us as far as taking the next step or making the right decision. So, remember even if you don't feel like it some times you should encourage a person that looks down or afar off. They will remember and appreciate it a lot more.  Jesus said to love your neighbor as yourself and you care about yourself so why not do the same for others even those that you don't know. You don't have to know someone to encourage them. Be blessing to others and God will be a blessing to you.



God bless

NaturalGoddess

Life is Funny... One Big Roller Coaster

Did you ever went about each day knowing that things would improve until they actually didn't and then your Creator tells you that cutting must be done? Do you know how hard that is? To actually get rid of something that He told you trust me. That's why I entitled this blog  life is funny..one big roller coaster. You're up one moment and then down another. You also face some upside downs and twists and turns in this life. The thing was life is also  like a curve ball because I never would have expected this. One thing that I don't really like is how painful it is to go through this and you happen to see everyone else: saints and worldly folk doing a lot better than you. Of course we know that the worldly folk will be doing much better because they are BUSY: Being Under Satan's Yoke. I got that acronym of BUSY from the NY Call this past weekend which was excellent. The actor Steve Baldwin had said this while he was speaking.  Worldly folk will have everything and more and things will be looking really good for them too. The saints went through their season of pruning and pain and hurt, but now it is my time. But, this goes to say you never know what to expect in this life for our lives are like a vapor. Here today and gone tomorrow. So, we must live as if it was our last. It does suck to be a child of the King and not see anything changing or working out. You feel stuck, forgotten, lost and not prosperous. It looks like things just aren't looking up and then when you least expect you have to lose even more stuff or remove people from your life. It's either the person does it or God will do it. When He does it, there's no telling how it will turn out. It could be worse than if you did it. But, I guess I have to laugh to keep from crying. That's what we have to do and paint a face on and put on that mask. We need to have a facade so that no one can see what we are really facing. If someone happens to push us the wrong way though, all of that you were hiding happens to come out though.Life is funny because you can end up crying and laughing the next moment after crying. But, I guess it's for the greater good because God is greater than. I feel like I can't even move or function and you know as long as I do stay occupied then it will be gone for that moment or period of time. But, it will always be back in my face to haunt me and I will have to face that demon. It's like I can never keep anything, that's what it feels like. I feel like I was this close and then it was snatched from me. I deactivated my facebook for the time being. I felt like it was the best thing to do because it was getting to be too depressing for me anyway. So, that was the first step and so I don't have to take down anything such as not being engaged or the pictures of us. So life has a way of tripping us up but it always has ways of making us stronger. 


God bless



NaturalGoddess 

Faking it Until You Make It

I'm sure you have all heard of this saying at some point in your life one way or another. It makes me laugh just thinking of it as I wrote it as a post. But it is true. We feel sometimes emotionally bothered about circumstances, situations, even relationships. We are human so of course that is natural for us to feel this way. But, even though we may feel this way we don't want to show how we are really feeling to everyone else and this is because of how they may perceive us down the road. When we fake it until we make it, is it really wrong? In my perspective, I don't think it is wrong because it will end up being apart of us down the road the very thing that we fake. This is what most people think too. It gets hard to do this trust me I know because you just want to give up and throw in the towel. Faking it until you make it is one of the best strategies because when you look back and wonder how did I get over, it was nothing but Jesus that kept you. You will look back and laugh. Faking it in my opinion can even extend to using your imagination or foresight. This gives you the belief to know that what I am dealing with now is only going to be for a time, but there is better down the road and those same people that looked down on you will be the same that look up at you. God will exalt you in His time and in no other time. I was told by my fiance that faking it until you make it in relationships is a no go at all. It can't be done because if the party that is faking it just to make the other said party happy then they will be explode and the relationship will go sour. You don't want that at all to happen because both said parties will be unhappy. This will make things ten times worse. But, for other matters I believe that faking it until make it works because in the end it will become a part of you in a sense that you will become better later on in the future. If you don't think so, then try it!

When You're Tired of Being Tired

Have you felt like you want to make a change?  That you have been dealing with the same thing for some time now? I mean no matter what you do to try and change the situation it just won't budge. You're just tired of being tired of the same old thing.  You feel like you're making your way all for nothing. You work hard and to the best of your ability and they don't care. It's like crazy how things in this life are. It's like wow I have been here all of this time and you really don't want to give what's entitled to me. I have earned it and you want to steal from me. You give others what they deserve but not me. It's like God why is this happening. You know to be honest: This has been my mind frame lately. Right now as I'm looking at this, I'm not thinking that way thank God. What seems to be a denial isn't it's just a delay for whatever reason. I'm not like the rest in this world. I should be treated much better than this and what not. But Jesus is the ultimate example. He was treated as if he was a  nobody and definitely beneath his real status. He did that so that when born again believers such as myself go through and realize that things are done wrong to us, it's a reminder to let us know that He was wronged first. It says it in the word anyhow of how basically we are hated because they hated Him first. So that encourages me to know something. Like people act like that you don't exist except for when they need you for something just because of the age barrier. That shouldn't matter at all, don't get it misconstrued. The same person that you saw at the bottom can be the same person at the top that is in a position even greater than you. So, be careful of you step over and treat with disrespect. But, you know what I am guilty of disrespect towards my loved ones unfortunately. The ones that care the most for me, while the people I work with and customers and etc don't give a rats behind about me. They care about themselves and the benefits in which they can get. I mean there are moments in which there's serenity but other times it just feels like that. I mean there's nothing in common but work so that's where that comes from. I mean if you even get tired of being tired then it's time for a change and that means YOU! You have to change your approach on how you do things or even how your facial expressions are. Your body language can go a long way. Speaking of that let me go on youtube to learn of that. I have been learning of many things pertaining to personal things and that will just be another on the list of education. Until next time God bless! 

NaturalGoddess

Everything is Temporary....Nothing in this Life is Permanent

These are the color of fire. There is a warfare going on and we have to put on the armor of God and stay firm. Though we may have people conspire against us and talking about us, praying on us because they don't want to see us grow and keep us in one place, we must remember that the battle is not ours, but it's the Lord's. God is in control and all power is in His hands. We must hang in there and claim, decree and declare the victory. I know that it gets tough but we must use the weapon of praise because the devil can't stand it when we praise God in the midst of all hell. The enemy can't stand our worship, he wonders how can they still praise and worship God even when I have done the worst. This is because of the unstoppable and unbreakable joy and Jesus being inside of us. If He that is greater, better and bigger is in us, then there is nothing to worry about. Those that are really for you will show themselves and those who are against you will show themselves. But, don't worry about those that curse and hate on you because we are supposed to love them no matter it is hard. But, you know what a woman of God said that I loved: Jesus said to give them the other cheek if they smack you on the one and you wonder why this is the case because you get double for your trouble. That made me think of things differently. Those who ignore me were never really my friends anyway. It was only because I went to the same house of worship as them. Heather Lindsey another woman of God said in her book Pink Lips and Empty Hearts that those people are just simple acquaintances. I'm just writing this blog to let you know that all of these things are temporal. 2 Corinthians 4:17-18 states that the light afflictions because that's all they are nothing like the promises that are already done and goes to talk about the things which are seen are temporary and the things which are not seen are forever. So hang on in there, don't give up, don't complain, if you have to cry, cry but get back up knowing that I'm coming out and Jesus is able to help you out. He is able to do what He said He will do. Read the work and hold onto His unchanging hand. If you don't Him get to know Him because He's the man who is in the business of healing and reviving that which is broken and lost. He came that He may seek and save the lost and let them there is another way out. He is awesome. Be blessed and stay encouraged. Always in the name of Jesus. 

NaturalGoddess 

Step Out into the Deep

I know that it is hard but we can't be complacent with our lives.It's time to move to the next level and I know that personally at this moment that I have a problem with this. I complain and make excuses and blame others for my mistake. It makes me upset that I keep getting mad and it is because I want to hear God myself. Apparently, I am told that I will never hear him and that he will speak to me through other people that he uses. I mean I don't feel that it is fair. I felt good and still now I feel good because no one can take the joy that I have from me. No man can take it away because they didn't give it to me. I mean I may be unhappy presently but I am still praising God because I know that it is for my own good. Everything in my life seems so stagnant and why it is because I haven't step out into the deep when I know that I was told to do this a couple of weeks ago and now I am being tested on it. I know that it is hard to step out of our comfort zones, but if we do it's only for the experience. If we fail, get up and try something else, if we succeed then it's like why didn't I do this in the first place? Everything will become better. Sometimes we don't want to step out because we don't know where we're going and it's like we have no control, but God is in control. He knows all and he sees all. It will be painful to do because people will be upset with you, but who cares what people think or say? They don't have a heaven or hell to put you in. You need to rely on the one who holds everything and who holds the promises. He has a plan for you, even if you don't know Him. Do you know that he sent Jesus Christ for you just so that we may live and that abundantly? He loves us so much and think of us. Everything that you are carrying, you don't have to carry any longer because God's got it. So, step into the deep and you will be glad that you did.  You will see that the stagnant is no longer stagnant and that everything will turn around in your favor. It is going to work but you must comply with what the Lord is saying.

The Change Starts in Us

We as a people just don't know how much we can contribute to the environment that surrounds us.  We can make our environment and the people that are around us do things to us that are negative just by our attitude or vice versa. Even if we have those people that are the ones who are still being negative we have to illuminate that kindness towards them. We must show them that you will not make me like you but that I can make you feel some way by how I react to you. We must be kind because kindness can go a long way. It can change someone's mood. Even if the person is not what you're used to, you must show kindness. If the world was more kind then it would be so much better. Just imagine if the world was kind and that's because one person took the initiative to start being kindness and it became contagious. I've been observant of how people treat others and each other lately. Even when it comes to myself I am mindful of it. I mean we're not perfect so we will make mistakes and there are some days that seem to sour for us. But it won't last forever we must think of change after being about change and we must be willing to change or it won't work. I know that if I ask God for something or do something I must meet him halfway so that he can finish the rest. It is another aspect of teamwork and kindness when it comes to a team it fierce. Even being unified and honest and all of these other aspects that go along with change. A lot of people I know are afraid of change and I have been afraid of change too.When I decided to change my hair to its natural state , it was hard and I was afraid of how I would look and what people thought of me. Oh man that was the main thing and now I love my hair and I don't regret what I did to get there and I'm still going through the journey and the process.So, once you have changed don't think that it stops there because that was only the beginning. It is all a process and a journey and life itself is both of these. So remember, if you want change you have to make sure it happens and go forth even in being afraid because you never know what you may be missing if you don't step out in the deep.

Not Myself Lately

I haven't wrote in a while, that's because I haven't felt like it. I always tend to start things and don't continue it for some sort of reason. It seems like the negative habits take over once again and I feel like giving up or quitting. I've noticed that at the end of the day that I haven't been myself lately. Something is lacking and I'm not sure what it is. I want something and I do know what it is but it's like maybe I tend to doubt what that thing is. I need to be praying more than ever when this tries to come upon me. This has happened on more than one occasion and it is nothing new. Things start to improve and then they become sort of crazy once again. I know things will get better and I have to be the one to propel it to be better. Sometimes, we ask God for some things but He expects us to do our part on it. He doesn't want everything to be done by Himself only even though we know that He doesn't need help. But, if you want something then you have to work towards it. I mean I do feel a little better,  but I want to feel great.  I just wonder sometimes at what point will that happen. So, I know why I haven't been myself lately and I may not reveal that within in this blog, but if you do know a word of prayer then pray for me. This is what I ask as you read this. I know that at one point or another, that we have all felt that way where it just feels where we lack something and we don't know what, but at the same time we do know. We need to release these things and give them all to God. I've been feeling a struggle within myself and I know that it will get better because it has to get better because I believe that it will. Sometimes, it's hard not to lose faith but we have to keep the faith and keep pressing forth. This has been occurring with me on and off for months. I've noticed that certain things that I'm apart that I have been getting away from just once or a little I feel better about because there's another work for me to do. This must be what has been bothering me and I'm unsure of that work but I know that if I pray I will get a revelation. It is because there is more for me to do and I'm not doing it right now. Lord, I must get ready for what it is that you will have me to do. 

Depending on God and No One Else

I was shown how just essential and necessary it is to depend on God. I thought I was good when going over the song that I had to learn and everything until it came until the night to perform it. So, I ended up blanking out. I couldn't remember the words or anything it was  so embarrassing and crazy to me. I was so critical and mad with myself. I am a perfectionist when it comes to my music and how I sing. I like things to be just right. I believe that God had to show me Himself. He wanted to let me know to depend on me and you will be successful and without me you will fail. I saw this for myself. When I redid it this past Sunday because our Pastor wanted to see it, it was much better I didn't forget the words and I was more into it than I was on Friday. What I did wrong was the kind of attitude that I had on the day of program which was last Friday. Something had occurred and I did not like it at all and then I had to do something else in place of it. Then I did not pray to God individually before actually performing. That was the mistake that I made. But, on Sunday I was in a much better mood, I prepared on Saturday and prayed and prayed and prayed. I prayed on that Sunday too on my own. I went up for prayer and drank throat coat tea and I succeeded this time. I depended on God and no one else to help me. I was into the song and even though people loved it the first time it was sang. They were more quiet this time; I guess they were listening to the way I was singing and what I was singing. This shows that if you depend on God, and put Him first that everything else will be in line as it should be. You can't expect to go to court and the win the case without Jesus being there. You can't expect to go to the hospital or doctor without Jesus being there. You can't a promotion on your job without Jesus being there. You may think that you are the source to your success  but Jesus is actually the source of success. One thing to remember is to never forget who blessed you because it is only by God's grace and mercy that we are still here. We can't wake up ourselves and each day we wake up that shows that we have purpose.  So remember to always depend and trust in God because He is the one that will see you through to the end. Trust Him with anything in your life and He will make sure that you have everything that you need in life. I know I trust and I always do my best to acknowledge Him.

All Up in the Business!

First of all if you don't like what I'm about to write then too bad. This blog is to speak my mind and make the expression  of how I feel. So, I made a life changing decision in my life and so I get nothing  but opposition from every side. This is family or whoever else. Some people haven't really revealed themselves.  But, it's always the case that people can't genuinely be happy for you and that's okay. At the end of the day check up under your own hood and get out of mine. I know you mean well but still this doesn't mean you can criticize what I do with my life.  It's like you spend all of that time checking under what's going on with me that you may miss out on your life and then when you end up in hell or wherever don't say nothing. Stop  concentrating on my life and concentrate on yours. If I make mistakes this is life and we live and we learn. Everything for the most part is a trial and error process. If it's not one thing , then it would be another thing. I  can't stay concentrating on your opinion because at the end of the day whatever become in life is my choice. Just remember that it's my life and not yours. I am going to be successful, I expect great things for my life, so much so that I act like I am better than what I am at times. This is not for you  to keep pecking your beak in my seed but to peck your own beak in your own seed. I can't stand the fact that everyone is just minding mine, why don't you mind yours. If this offends, you then too bad so sad and I don't care if you catch an attitude and don't talk to me. I care about my happiness and I'm not going to be miserable on account of you. I refuse to do so, I'd rather be happy than to be miserable. I've been down this road way too many times before and even though in those situations it happened to be correct, this time you are wrong.  Look at the quote and let it marinate in your mind. Be happy and remember that it's my life and don't forget about it. I will always make choices that you will disagree with but it's my decision. I choose to believe to have enough faith that things will change and that is why I am where I am at this moment. Don't get it twisted, I love you, but don't be all up in the business! This is  why I'm to myself and don't say anything to no one but a few people. The less people around, the better.

Valentine's Day: Real Love

Hey everyone,
Once again I'm here to write about something that everyone is probably wondering about. It's Valentine's day today and I'm seeing a lot of people writing that they don't have one. But, I'm also seeing that people are writing that they don't need a valentine and God is their valentine. I commend you girls because Valentine's day is a man made holiday. Though it seems like I don't have a valentine, this year I do but I am so proud to discuss on this blog what real love is. A man can try as much as he can to satisfy you, but the real man is JESUS. He's the one and only one for God is love and it says this in the word of God. I came to tell you and to talk how God's love is real love because He loved us so much that he gave his only begotten son. He gave us the greatest love of all. Whitney Houston sings a song " The Greatest Love of All." It talks of loving ourselves and this is true too. We can truly love ourselves because we know that God loves us and there is nothing greater than having that assurance. When we are able to love God , we then can love others. I usually have a valentine on valentine's day and there was actually one time in which I had no one. I felt some type of way, but then because of God's love, I can accept whether I have someone or not. The person that I have now is very blessed to have me in his life and I am blessed as well to have him in my life. Our love won't be able to flourish without God's love for  us and us having that love for Him. We won't be able to function and our relationship won't be able to reach levels if we don't have Jesus within us. We need to portray that love to others and show what Christ is all about. God's love is unconditional, you can turn your back on Him and He will still love you with open arms. That's how MY God is and He won't ever judge you for what you've done like man, He will forgive you time and time again. Valentine's day is everyday with those we love and with God. Valentine's day is not one day that we can just forget about when the day is over. I love how much I've grown because I love Christ and I love serving others. I love to do the will of God and that's what I want for my life. God sent someone to me because of this reason, when he knew the time would be right for me and that person to finally come as one. I will tell you this my valentine and I dated in High School and we were at points in our lives where we weren't ready to be together yet. But, now we have come to a point in our lives where we can be together and flourish. We can minister to the people in this world together and show the people how great God's love is through our love that He has given us. Real love is God's love don't forget that and God will send that person to you when the time is right because there is a season to everything in our lives, so that person that you are with may not even be yours forever. Time is short and life is short. Let's make it worthwhile by accepting real love: God's love into our hearts . Once you accept Him, you will never be the same and you will with know that the decision you made will be the right one. God is love. No greater love has ever been portrayed than His. He died for us so that we may have eternal life and spend it with Him. He will be glorified and magnified either way why not today?






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Hit and Hit Hard: Blizzard of 2013 "Nemo"

It started on Friday during the day as just snow even though it was said that it's supposed to rain.  The snow was coming down and coming down hard. I was on my way to school when it happened too. The meterologist on the news said that it would be 12-16 inches here in Nassau County, but Suffolk County would get more than Nassau County. It was crazy because I still had to go to work and I was traveling via public transportation and walking once getting off the bus. So, I was hoping to go home after because it seemed like it wouldn't even give up. It was getting worse and worse when I was on my way to work. It was first like ice rain or something and then became snow right after that when I was walking towards work. It was trending on Facebook too. One of the people that I knew said it was raining in one town and then snowing in another. I really wanted to go home while I was at work, I wasn't sure if I would have rehearsal or whatever other things that I had going on. When I finally saw that they sent word that things would be canceled, I was so happy. I got to home and relax for once in my life. It was cool because I slept and what not. I believed that this storm came because it was a build up of the snow that we lacked this winter season and this winter season is much colder than last year's winter season. On Saturday, there was nowhere to go either because things were crazy outside and thanks to the hardworking people in my house, our driveway/walkway was cleared really nicely. But, I will say this: my block ended up being horrible they plowed or whatever but the road was so bumpy because it was icy from the temperatures.  It is still bad anyway and it is now raining today after all of that snow. I can't say that  the rain in this case helps because due to the temperatures being below freezing the water in the streets are sure to turn to ice in the night. This is not good for the commute for people who are driving to work and even the buses. I just hope that it improves because it seems just like two years ago that this snow is here to stay. They are now saying that Valentine's day that there is chances of snow occurring too. This won't be good for some of you who have plans. I don't have plans; at least not on Thursday. Some people are still suffering  in other places due to the unplowed roads on their street. There were some outages but not as great as with the effects of Hurricane Sandy. There was more preparation this time because instead of LIPA, National Grid took over and LIPA had to take a backseat to National Grid.  I will show you some photos of my block and also mountains of snow in the church parking lot(at the end of this blog). I was also sent some pictures of what it looked like in Jericho but I didn't keep them unfortunately. I just hope that they get the unplowed roads of snow done because people are once again affected by yet another storm.

Graced with Poetry

On February 6, 2013, we had a read in at school for American American Studies. It is black history month so that was a great way to start the month off. There are many read ins within the country and I just happened to be in one and it was a great thing according to one of professors at school. I did agree with the very statement that she said as well. We were graced with poetry by  Children's writer and poet Samantha Thornhill. The way she was dressed was so afrocentric; I loved all of it and she was basically matched how she was dressed. She performed many poems that were hers as well as her favorites. It was cool to hear a poet so down to earth. She teaches upcoming actors at Julliard and that is really cool. In the end, I ended up purchasing her cd full of poems that were odes in fact. The name of  the cd is Odelicious poems and I got her autograph too, which is really nice. I told her she must have been practicing because it is a  signature that no one can copy. That's the type of signature you should have and want so that when you sign documents and whatever else you do, you actually have a signature that's all your own and is unique. So, I got that and posted it too. There will be a photo of what I have described in this blog.  I was just so inspired by the way she recited her poetry and how she made you hang on to every word. She seems very young too and she goes on the Q train : herself and some others and basically do what she does. She doesn't even do it for me and they are trying to do it in other places she said. She will be doing it in Bryant Park this weekend she said but I' m not sure about that one due to the weather that we will be having on Saturday. But, I'm thinking to take a trip on the Q train on purpose just to see if she will end up on that train one day and I will be happy to purchase something again and to get it autographed again.  It was such a blessing to be graced by this poet with her poems and other poems  that inspired her in some way. Samantha Thornhill told us how poetry is everywhere and you can make a poem about an inanimate object as if it has a voice.  It was really cool because she talked about a balloon that was in the street and how it  was being ran over by cabs and other cars leading up to its death. She made things seem like they have a voice with poetry. It has inspired to write poetry again not just when I'm angry but anything that is out there tangible intangible animate inanimate it doesn't matter. As long as I am breathing I have a voice, she said something on the lines. She was also saying that she's not a person who writes when angry that's not when she does her best work. Her work is great and I listened to the cd this morning while in the shower and some of the poems she performed at school and others she did not. She did have language in her poems like some of them, but not all and I guess it gives it even greater emotion to do. You can feel the emotion in every single one  of the poems that she wrote and even the ones that she didn't write you can feel it as well. I was grateful to be apart of something that has a legacy behind it and I intended to look up these things for the future too.






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Being Apart of an Organization that's about Kingdom Building

Hello everyone so if you didn't know I am a servant of the Most High God. I am going to tell you about what it is like about being apart of something that will make a change or a difference of the lives of mankind. It is especially great when it is done for God. It isn't easy though I can say because you will face opposition at the worst times but I will tell you what that it is all worth it in the end. It is crazy especially when you make that decision to take a leadership role within the organization. But, in all honesty I can't complain because it is great to meet others that are in the body of Christ and who are willing to go for the same goal that you are. It is hard when you have those who are not as committed or they have the wrong spirit. In this ideal, you would fast and pray for the organization or the thing that you are apart of and trust and believe that God will work it out for your good. I can say that being part of an organization has its ups and downs because we are all human and we get an attitude and our personalities. We tend to forget who we are doing it for and the reason why we intended to do it in the first place. I have learned that those people that are a hindrance at that point in time, there haven't matured yet and realize that it is not them and that there is a bigger picture. It has always been something that I wanted to do and it didn't become fulfilled until college days. In High school, I was apart of a few organization that were about kingdom building, but they did not take flight when I was there. I will say though that one of the organizations that I was in during High school took flight and I saw that for myself when I came to one of the events that they had. When working for God, it does get rough because the enemy is always on your case and you know that you are doing something right when he gets on your case. If he's not on your case, then you should be very worried because that just means that he's already got you.  So, I go to say that if you want to proclaim the goodness of Jesus Christ who took the sins of this world just for us, do it and do it wholeheartedly. He doesn't need people that are going give half it's all or nothing and He means business. God wants zealous, passionate people who will go for broke on His behalf. You do just what He wants and you will be blessed for it, trust me with Him you're in good hands. Just know that being apart of an organization that's about kingdom building is not easy, but in the end it is all worth it for His glory.






NaturalGoddess 

Back to School

School started on January 22nd 2013. The school that I attend at this moment is NCC or Nassau Community College. It is called NCC for short which is a much better way of saying it then the whole entire name anyway. This is now my second semester here and the professors that I have for this semester are really cool and fun. When I first came here last semester I thought this is not as bad as I thought it would be. I love it here actually.  The people that I've met are awesome. I've joined NCC IVCF which is the Intervarsity Christian Fellowship chapter here at Nassau. I can't wait to see what God is going to do this semester with intervarsity. It is going to be really cool. The picture that is attached with this blog is me in Treat Street Too which is the second convenience store we have here at Nassau. It is the place where you can stand and eat your food that you bought or charge your phone as well. They have great food and snacks here. But I'm so blessed to be back in school and this semester I'm going to do even greater so that I can get on the dean's list.  I'm not too far behind. I'm better now than where I was in York College as far as GPA. It is going to be a great semester and I am going to go for the gold.

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This is me in the one of the convenience stores at school. 

Fed up and Frustrated

Hello all! Well, do I have something to write on this one today. I mean right now I feel like I am back tracking in 2013 and I will tell you why that is. This is because in reference to my If Your Heart's Not in It, Why Do It? Blog. I have to do that thing in which I don't want to do based on authority. Even though, this is the case I give my 100% anyway.  I mean I'm fed up because I'm on a different level and different wave than everybody else. My mind is not where their mind is at for that matter. I mean when something is your passion and you don't want to be apart of that thing in which you have a love and a passion for, there's  a problem. I mean like I can't believe that I have to do this. I mean the reason why I must is because there's no sense in even bothering to not do so when the other individuals who have been away from the very same thing now have to come too. I can understand their frustration because it's like to be honest without myself and those individuals, the group won't be effective and they can't function. I'm calling it how I see it. This is just something that I was battling with in 2012 that I really want to put behind me. It's a new year for goodness sake. I don't want to be harboring feelings from 2012 in 2013. I feel like that I will be held back because of this very thing and don't get me started on the fact that if you want someone to be apart of something you will make an obligation to make sure that they have a way to get there and be home.This blog is discussing issues that are in my heart for real and I'm not joking either. This is ridiculous and God please help  me. I need you because there is no one else that can do that for me. I don't really know what to do, but all I know is Lord only you can get me through.I mean I know that my gift will make room for me and there are things that are inside of me that will come out. I had a discussion about with my significant other and he said it is up to you. You hold the power to change things if you don't like them. Honey, you are completely right! His insight on my emotions are on the money. I know that I don't want to be fed up in 2013 over this nonsense. I mean it is making aggy(aggravated) in other aspects that I actually like doing and who knows because the sky is the limit to what I can try. How do I know what is in me without even having time to try it first? I want fed up, frustration to be no more. There was a discussion yesterday that has to do with it and I need to have my own discussion with authority because I'm only doing this for them. I still feel if your heart's not in it, why do it? So, go for your dreams and don't allow those things which frustrate you to hinder you for what's in front of you. 





NaturalGoddess<3 

Trust

Well as far the word trust I laugh at it when I see it. It is very funny to me because of my experiences in this life with human beings. The average person doesn't always lose my trust, but a few people have in my life. I have lost trust in men, such as my own father, people that I looked at as another parent, and so-called friends. But, I've never lost trust in God. Why is that? It is because He is not a man and He is my Father. He is everything that human beings lack. Trust what does it mean? Let us look at the dictionary definition to the word:

trust: confident expectation of something;hope -dictionary.com
This definition is most definitely what I believe trust to be.

Every time when I put my trust in people, they seem to show me that they're not trustworthy. This is something that I know I will have to work on. Most of us, had to deal with this issue because of the various experience that we faced. It is up to us to find a source that we can trust. In my opinion, the best source is Jesus Christ. He won't ever let you down and He's there all the time to pick you up and lift you up. He enables us to stand. So, just know that trust is something that must be earned and that it's not there to begin with. 












NaturalGoddess 

If Your Heart's Not in It, Why Do It?

What's the point of being apart of anything if you're not willing to give your all. People tend to do things but really what is their motive? What is their reason for becoming apart anyway? Was it just for show or to gain accolades? If your heart is not in it then why be apart of it? That's all I'm saying. Don't do something unless you're really passionate about it and your heart is willing to put the work in. Everything takes time before it can get to the supposed thing that is called perfection.  No one in this world is perfect though for we are imperfect vessels. This is what I think especially on a personal note . I'm dealing with something like this right now as we speak and I have decided to give it up. I don't want to do it anymore even though it is my passion but with certain people I just don't want to achieve the task. We live and we learn is what I say. So, as I said before if your hear is not  in something, why do it? Don't do something because your family said to do it , but do it because it is something that you want to do and you have a love for it. 




















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2013!!!!!!!

They keep saying new year, new you. It pertains to being physically fit. But I don't know what about it that makes you what to work out. By the way, these blogs will never been plainly written as far as appearance. It will always be something flamboyant. So, yeah I'm curious to know what the public thinks on that: New Year, New You thing. My opinion is that it is cool, but how long will it last? Every time when a new year rolls in, everyone is like yeah I'm going to do this and that. This is going to be way different than the year before. But, then after a while they tend to just forget about it or not even bother with it anymore. I'm guilty of doing this as well. But, I know that without a shadow of a doubt that this year is going to be different than any other year that I have been through. This year, I will be 23 years old but that's not the difference. The difference that I will be encountering will be life changing to the point where things won't be the same anymore. If I have to say anything about that, it would be that topic will be in another blog. Trust me it will. But, my suggestion to you for this year will be to just get on the ball if you didn't do so before and to just always know that you can change something if you don't like it. This is the best thing that I've ever heard. IT'S 2013, LET'S DO THIS!!!!!!! Enjoy and HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!












NaturalGoddess

Welcome to the Land of the Goddess!

Hi this blog is just an intro to all that will be covered. I actually have a tumblr as well. I also have wordpress as a blog. Those are other sites that I have but they are none like this one. I will be posting pictures on here of the many journeys that I have.It will cover a multitude of things, kind of like an online diary/journal; whichever one you want to classify it. I will talk about my adventures with friends, family members and other loved ones of mine who are dear to my heart. I will even discuss some things such as beauty, fashion and art. I have a lot of interests and I plan to share my thoughts and ideas with the world. I'm so glad that you are here reading this, I hope you are ready and willing to go into the mind of the NaturalGoddess. 


















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